Dealing With The Stress

The ups and downs at work continues. It appears that perhaps the end of all the unknowing is around the corner. Time will tell. The end of last month has turned into the middle this month, but then again....the first of the week is now Friday, so maybe the middle of the month is really November 7th... or even later. I know, it makes no sense, and I can't be more specific.

In the meantime, I go from day to day, thinking I am going to be able to wait this thing out, then swinging to doubting if the deal is going to be enough soon enough.

Mostly, I am somewhere in the middle, and handling pretty well…mostly...I think. Probably one would get a better, and more objective, opinion from Wonderful Guy. I might really be freaking out. I don’t know.

I know this. I am not obsessing about the need to know the future like I have done in the past. I am trying to work each day as if…as if I knew everything was going exactly like it needed to be. As if it was all going to turn out exactly like it needed to be.

I am trying to do that, not always 100% successful, but working at it. It’s a better place to be than continually worrying about things I can do nothing about. Better to take the steps I can take, to do the things I feel led to do, ask the questions to find out the facts I need, then make the decisions that are right for me, regardless of what is right for others.

Mostly.